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ArmageddonMUD
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Word of the day : "Lugubriously"
Monday, October 7, 2003
Well today wasn't average, like everyday usually is. Today sucked really bad (which is almost my 'average'). Let's see...In my first class I attemped to make a few designs for Becky's pirate flag, and ended up doing one and just doodling the rest of the class peroid. Mr. Ayuk lectures about the most boring material anyway. I worked out a lot this afternoon - definately the highlight of my day. I turned in my project for CPTG1010, then listened to her ramble and rant for an hour about absolutely nothing (Someone remind me why I PAY these people to 'instruct' me?). Anyways...In Java I had a mid-term - I know I made at least a 70+ on it, I totally forgot it was today so all of that 'not paying attention' I did in class over the past 3 weeks just killed me. I ate so much today...here's the count:
-Four Bananas
-A lettuce Sandwich
-Tuna-fish Sandwich
-An apple
-My mom's dinner
Sheesh! A mess-load of food! At this rate I'll be back up to 230 in no time! Today a girl in my Political Science class caught my eye, but strangely enough all I could think about was Becky. She's a major part of my day, thought-wise, and I'm always thinking about her. I dunno if she feels the same way about me - I seriously doubt it. It just seems every day I get more and more lonely and bored of life, nothing ever seems to go my way...there's no one to talk to, or hang around with that HONESTLY cares. Everyone has jobs, or thier love lives, or hobbies that don't inclue me; so I can't just hang out with someone - they're always too busy. I just got done reading one of my friend's posts a few mintues ago, and I can't help but laugh (no offense). But I mean seriously, c'mon...you can't honestly sit there and say that there are no -good- or -decent- guys out there who don't go for the bad-girl hoey type. That's bull, I say if -anything- it is the WOMEN that are so blind. They are the ones looking for the 'hotties' or the 'bad-boy' types that have no brain or personality. I'm living proof that a decent guy with a great personality can't get a girlfriend. Not all guys want sex, most guys do becuase they are idiots, and can't appreciate women for who they are. I'll admit, there aren't a lot of virgin males out there anymore, and the ones who are (like me), are probably the nerdy-type (who are prolly nice people) that just aren't physically attractive to any girl. See thats the problem with many relationships today, people have become so vain, and it's mainly the media and society who we should blame. Everyone thinks that we should have perfect bodies and sexy hair just to be normal. The so called "beautiful" people don't realize how heredity works I suppose. Just look at the people back in the old days, man I wish I could live back then...so peaceful...i'd fit right in. My parents braught me up - and they've made me VERY old-fashioned. Hrm...let's see...the perfect way to describe my personality...ahh, have you ever seen that movie "Blast From the Past?", well Brendan Fraser's character "Adam" is prolly the exact match of my personality. Oh well...I'm not that mis-informed...or...that eager to talk to people...or as outgoing...but hey, the other stuff remains, heh. Welp, I'm done writing for tonight, going to retire to my room and do some Yoga. Adieu.
-=Lost and Alone=-
>>>--Matt---->
Monday, October 6, 2003
Well now, looks like this is my first entry to anything remotely related to doing online journals. Let's see...what to say what to say...well today was average, once again. My days are always average. By average I mean full of the dull boredom that consumes my life, or the aching lonliness that fills my heart. Won't someone just kidnap me? It's easier now that I only weigh 174 (As opposed to 230!). I won't put up a fight, I promise. But you WILL have to blindfold me (I'd like the anticipation). Ung, college sucks more than anything. My parents are forcing me to take my particular major (IT) as well as take six classes this semester, just so THEY can get cheaper insurance rates. It's sad really, they are the nicest people in the world, yet I loathe thier ways so much.
All I want to do is just MOVE OUT! Make some friends other than the two I have and know. I mean sheesh, one of my friends I never even see, he lives in Florida. Oh well, maybe I'm just a wuss, but yeah...bleh. What good is a hopeless romantic in Georgia?
-=Lost and Alone=-
>>>--Matt---->
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